Notes from a Plain Jane

Random Writings about anything
Today is my Mom's Birthday and we celebrated in a bit unusual way aka The professional way.
We had a dinner at Tramway's Buffet at Banawe Quezon City.
<This post will be updated later>
I just read the news that my beloved Wondergirls leader, Min Sunye will officially leave the group. I know it will happen, the realistic part of me predicted it, who can manage being a newly wed and come back in a group; I did not say it can't happen, but the priorities will change. And their goes my hopeful part that keep saying "No she wouldn't, she's their leader. JYP release an official announcement"
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I don't know what to feel exactly, I still remember when Sunmi officially went on hiatus, I cried bucket of tears. Two years has been passed and I think I've matured a bit that I can fully understand why Leadermin will take that path. But I still feel sadness, it is funny because they don't even know me but I feel like I am losing one of my sister.

I know that among any other thing, love is something we should never took for granted, and I admire Sunye Unnie for getting what her heart desired. I have a great faith that her marriage life will be amazing, problems do arise but with their faith and love, they can conquer every obstacle. I am glad that she meet a good man that will love and cherish her, something that the entertainment business cannot give permanently. I can list a lot of things why I am happy and support her decision but like what I always says to my friends, you can be happy and sad at the same time. And I guess, this is what I am feeling right now.
I am happy that someone will protect and love her when the limelight faded and the curtain are all close.
I am sad because it will affect the Wondergirls, and to be honest they are not on the great side.
But there is one thing that I am sure, I support her.

I know a lot of people will criticize her, especially those who are much much concerned with the group. There will be lot's of question that no one knows the answer. Her wedding news is already a big scoop, it is encouraging and surprising for an idol group member to marry at that age but we cannot deny that this also affect the group. This question that usually arise are related to their American Album and what will happen now to the girls after the solo promotion. I hope they wouldn't disband T.T That is so heart breaking and I do not know if I can handle it properly.

I am a fangirl, and I also asked the question above. They been through a lot of sacrifice, losing members and fans. But aside from mere fangirl, I am a wonderful who understand that the members happiness will always be our priority. Their decision may hurt us, but if that what makes them happy, after a while we can fully understand them and glad that they stood for their own happiness. I hope that if there are wonderfuls that are not too pleased with this, try to put your self on her shoes. She did her part on producing and sharing great music. She made us happy. She made us proud along with the girls. Don't you guys think that now she that she find her happiness, the best thing we can do is understand, accept and support our wonderful leader?

If one day, at some twist of fate Sunye Unnie will read this, I wanted you to know that I am happy that you choose your happiness over anything. I support you, and I hope that you will have a wonderful marriage! I am glad that in this crazy world that we leave in, you show us how to dream ,do things for your dreams and that dreams changes over time too. Unnie, thank you for inspiring me :D
To the Wondergirls, Hwaiting!!! You still rock and will forever be Wonderfuls!!!!

P.S. I misunderstand the news, it says indefinite leave and not leaving wondergirls T.T Sorry :(


I was a day late but it's better than never right? Yes, Ellen, We know you love to give excuses for your laziness :P

2012 already bid it's goodbye 2 days ago, and 2013 is waving her hands in front of us. Though it's a late post, I wanted to give my thanks to a wonderful year that makes me feel really okay after a long time.

2012 in words for me are, CHANGE, FREEDOM, FAITH and FANGIRL :) Four words that summarize how the previous year has been really good to me.

CHANGE
It's been a long time from the time I bravely face this word. For the past years, I've been a stagnant creature that stays on her comfort zone. I was being afraid to change things because I am uncertain if I can handle all the crazy emotions and over analyzing that I may do. Actually, I am still afraid of changes at the start of 2012, but like what they said when changes happen, it doesn't stop, it doesn't pause, so you should prepare yourself, smile and take the challenge.

This year, I change my career path and it feels so amazing. That finally I have the courage to leave the place where I am not happy anymore. This year, I also realize that even though you change a part of your life, it doesn't mean that the people you are with will change aswell. I make new friends and my relationship with my previous team mates are much better.

Change doesn't happen solely on my career, it also happen within my family :) There are so many decisions and plans we created this year that we know what should we do in the future. Many plan's that we will do anything to accomplish.

I know that change is constant, and I shouldn't fear it but sometimes, it's really difficult telling yourself to calm down when you are not really sure on what's happening inside you. This coming year, I promise myself to be more open to it, to embrace it with a gleefully smile because I know I am heading to something. It may not be as big as I wanted to, but I know it will lead me to be the person I am meant to be:)

FREEDOM
It's actually associated with change since I feel a lot more free when I accepted and do something for a a change.
I feel freedom towards my work that I am now disciplining myself again to be a better me.
I feel freedom to take incharge of my career more that I am restricting myself to lesser fangirling because I wanted to learn more.
I feel freedom in my life now because I was not as bitter as before.
I feel freedom because I have decided to take the wheel of mylife again and decide which destination I will go next.
I feel freedom last year because finally I admit that I am not okay, I seek help, I forgive myself.
I realize this year that freedom really means being outside a box or a cage, but sometimes it's been difficult determining if you are inside a cage or not because you are being blinded by the invisible walls that you created by yourself.
I am thankful that finally I feel like a flying bird again, I feel the old me who look the world brighter.

FAITH
All of the other words I wrote is nothing if I didn't reposes my faith.
I always believe that I am one of Papa God's favorite cup of chocolate and I promise him before that I will do anything in my power to serve him. But for the past years, my hardheadedness and pride made its way, I was ashamed to face him and making bull crap excuses that I am busy and will make time next time, but I did not try hard enough.

This year, Papa God knock on my family door and for a long time, we welcome him as a family. My faith in him resurrected and I am slowly going back to that little girl who talks to him all night.
I realized how stupid I am for the past years and I will not do that stupidity again. It's not because of the things I gain but mainly because he makes me feel stronger and much better.

We do have many problems this year, I can't count how many times I've cried alone but everytime I talked to him, it feels that someone's touching my heart and telling me "Little Child, don't worry too much, I am here and will protect you". Being a Papa God's servant really a truly amazing, life changing experience:)

FANGIRL
This balance all the seriousness actually.
I will never forget 2012 as this was the year I met and watch Bigbang live ^^ I've been high for almost a month because of that.
I am more active on this part too that I write fanfictions again after 2010 T.T
I promise to lessen my time here this 2013, it's easy back threading ^^

2012 has been a wonderful year to me and I hope that this 2013 it will be a BANG ^^
I hope my 2013 I will finally scrap some of the things on my bucketlist, my family will be much much much better, and I will continue serving Papa God.

P.S. Lola, I know you will not able to read this but I hope you'll be okay there :) I miss you so much and one day I will draw once again.


P.P.S. I'm such a feeler here:P



AN: Sorry for any grammatical error. Will still proof read this later, or please point it out ^^ I was so excited to post this that I haven't check everything very well :)
Done some proof reading (yay!) and edited it accordingly though I will not promise it doesn't have any grammatical mistake T.T Grammar and I are not the best of friends and I usually makes error on tenses, Aigoo, I wished I listen to my English Teacher more T.T
Please forgive any error and enjoy my random HeeDragon fanfic ^^


Dzzzzzz…dzzzzzzzzz..dzzzzzzz

The unstoppable sound of vibration wake up his senses, he immediately reached the d**m phone vibrating on the bedside table using his left and free hand to avoid waking up the sweet girl who is making his right arm as her pillow.

Thinking of her, he carefully turned his head to watch her sleeping face as she keeps hugging him. A satisfied smile is visible in his face. If this is the sight he will see every time he wake up, his day will be much better; he wouldn’t throw a fist even though they will abruptly wake him up like usually happen when Seungri suddenly goes to his room to wake him up; but then if this will be the sight that he will see, he might probably wouldn’t want to leave the bed anymore and stay there as long as he could. Realizing where he's not fully awaken mind going creates a silent laugh that usually happen when you caught yourself remembering funny things alone.

He got back to reality when he felt that his phone vibrated again, the time when he realizes the reason why he was suddenly awake at 3:15 AM, as he checks on his wall clock.
He finally looks at the screen of his phone to check who the hell is interrupting his alone time with girlfriend.

His forehead automatically creases when he read that it was no other but their Maknae, SeungRi the Stinky Panda as what's written as his name and his picture that full of doodles that created by no other than her lovely girlfriend.

“Wae?” He immediately said in a low but whisper like voice when he accepted the call.

“HYUNG!! WHEREAREYOU? WHYAREYOUNOTANSWERINGMYCALL!!!” He said in a loud frantic voice that makes him wince and instantly check on the angel sleeping beside him; Seungri should thank his lucky charm that his girlfriend is a sleepy head or he will not know what he might do to him.

“Shh! Could you please lower your voice? You might wake her up!” He said in an authoritative voice that he doesn’t use usually while he was tightening his hug to her that makes me smile as if she really know what was happening.

“Tsk, Like what I am thinking, you are with her right now.” The maknae said in a matter of factly voice that sounded like he is confirming to himself what he think was right all along.

“Yah Seungri! Tell me immediately why you are calling at this time or I’ll hang up now” He was impatient now, looking at his girlfriend sleeping face makes him want to throw the phone and hide to the whole world.

“Hyung! Don’t!!! Our CEO might call you in within an hour! I know you miss her so much but you should have been careful!” Seungri’s voice sounds worried and nagging at the same time but that weren’t caught his entire attention.

CEO. Call him. At this hour. WHY?

“WHY?”

“Hyung, is there any TV on where ever you are right now?”

“Neh”

“Open it and change it to the Entertainment Channel 14 and you will know why”

He did what he told, as soon as he gets the remote control on his bedside table, he lowered the volume and change it to the channel Seungri said.

He was surprised when the image that welcome his eyes was him and Sohee’s picture, and it’s not a simple picture because it was perfectly timed when he kissed her on the lips yesterday’s afternoon when he fetch her at her apartment.

The news caster informed their viewer where the picture was captured. She even told them that they are currently checking with JYP and YG Entertainment about this news so they need to tune in to hear additional updates on the hottest and the latest entertainment news.

He let go of a small laughter that confused the person on the other line.

“Hyung, have you gone crazy???” Seungri asked worriedly as he continues to hear some chuckles too.

“Hyung! I told you to be careful!!! Hyung please, where ever you are now please let me know so we can help you get out there! Hyung, calmed down!”

“Yah! Maknae! I’m perfectly fine” JiYong said to his frantic dongsaeng.

“Why are you laughing like a mad man a while ago and it do sounds like you wanted this to happen?”

“It is because I really wanted this to happen” He said as a matter of fact.

“Hyung you can’t be serious! What will happen to your fans? They are crazy about you, and you know that. They can be really really scary. And what will happen to Sohee’s fan? HYUNG! THIS IS A BIG PROBLEM!!! Aish! I told you multiple times to be careful! C-A-R-E-F-U-L”

“Seungri Ah! Don’t nag at me, like what I said a part of me wanted this to happen a long time ago. Sohee and I are already 7 years. Sunye has been happily married for 3 years in which their fans accepted it gleefully. Don’t worry too much; you know that VIP’s will forever support us right? And my fans already know about this years ago just like how your fans know that you are dating Sunmi” He said light heartedly.

“You just make me worry…tsk. Arasso, the other guys might call you too, just a while ago Taeyang Hyung called me and asked if I have reached you since you aren’t answering your phone. I also wonder if Sohee brings her phone, Sunmi is worried sick too because she’s not answering her phone. Even though she’s sleeping beside you, she can still hear her phone’s ringing, answer it please or leave a text message to Sunmi.”

“Her phone was in her bag, it’s on the sofa, and it’s on silent mode like mine. Tell Sunmi that she’s okay with me. And could you make a favor Panda? Tell the presidents, the rest of the guys and girls that I already know the news and will inform Sohee later. If they wanted my side, I do want to admit our relationship and date in public. I will turn off our phones for a while and will report to the President Yang house at 8 AM today okay?” He said while caressing Sohee’s cheek with his left thumb.

“Hyung! Do you really want to kill me? How could I say that to all of them T.T they probably roast me when you wouldn’t show your face here immediately!” His dongsaeng is whining, really know what will happen to him when he cascade his instruction.

“Hahaha, you are really smart Lee SeungHyun, but I know you could easily do that and they wouldn’t able to roast you, they will probably torture you first before putting you on fire” He said happily imaging Seungri being roasted on fire.

“I am not the one being on this scandal but why do I feel that you are passing the entire burden on me?” He said not an inch happy of what he just said earlier.

“ Because you are the man! Bye Seungri J Tell them 8 AM sharp at President Yang’s house, Sohee and I will be there. You know that President Yang and JYP-PDnim doesn’t call their employee at wee hours to disturb their resting artist when they know the truth, that’s why we have admitted this relationship as soon as Sohee agreed to be my girlfriend. Good Mornight Panda!” He gleefully said before he hangs up, hearing Bigbang’s Maknae sigh.

He just returned his phone to the table when Sohee moved and lazily open her eyes.

“Oppa…who just called you? She said while trying to open her eyes and fighting the sleepiness.

“The Stinky Panda” He said while lovingly hug the not so fully awake Mandu. He loved seeing her just waking up face, it looks so innocently cute and it always magnifies when she was fighting off her sleepiness.

“Oh? Why did he call at…nearly four in the morning” She said after checking the time and going back to her favorite pillow, his arms.

“Our secret has been out Ahn Sohee” He said watching her intently so he could see that immediate changes on her emotions.

A laughter filled the room as she looks at him wide eyed, mouth slightly open and in an instantly sitting position.

His back leaves the bed and sit across his girlfriend. He holds his girlfriend face and kissed her opened mouth. He kissed her so softly, so tenderly that she immediately closed her eyes; her arms find its way to his neck as she kissed him back.

JiYong stopped what they are doing to get some air and look at her eyes with so much love and passion before he kissed her again. Their gently and soft kisses suddenly become fiery with so much intensity that she just noticed that his hands are nowhere to be found on her face but currently touching her waist and reaching the hem of his shirt that she wore after their love making few hours ago.

“Oppaa…” She said in a whisper like voice that immediately makes him look at his beautiful girlfriend.

“Neh, Nabi ah..” He said before making a trail of kisses on her neck.

“Ji, what are we going to do now?” She said in an uncertain voice that makes him stop the trail that he is making on her sexy neck and holding her face and caressing it with his thumbs.

“What do you want us to do? If will decide, I wanted to tell everyone that you are mine so no one could make their attempt on you. I wanted to announce to all social sites that I have and entertainment portals that HeeDragon is real, not only real but on their 7th year and counting…” He said lovingly and ensuring that their eye contact wouldn’t break.

“And counting…” she repeated while cutting of their distance and giving him a light kiss.

“Yes, and counting. So don’t think that you could escape me easily woman! I have all the intention in the world to ensure that you will be mine” He said in a comically possessive voice that makes her laugh.

“Well, if you’re really convinced with that idea, I have no choice but to take you and make you mine too” She said in a singsong voice that matches his possessiveness.

“ Then it’s a deal! Tomorrow at 8 AM we will go to President Yang and tell them our decision to admit our relationship publicly” He said still keeping their eye contact and holding her hand tightly
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“And you really set the time mister”

“Of course! I am Kwon Ji Yong! I have also told Seungri to relay that message to our Presidents and members and I already turned off my phone” He said bragging in front of her.

“So you already set everything up without consulting me mister, don’t tell me you already said that we will announce our relationship publicly” She said while crossing her arms, looking at him with intent gaze while pouting her lips.

“Not that part, I just said if they need my side, but knowing Seungri, he possibly said that we will announce our relationship. And I know you will agree to it, you want to claim me as yours as much as I want to tag you as mine” He said while giving her a very cute expression before hugging her tightly.

“Aish! You should be thankful that I love you Kwon Ji Yong!” She said while hugging him tighter.

“I am Princess, which is why I will treat to dinner whoever snapped our picture yesterday when I kissed you.”

“WHAT? So a paparazzi caught us yesterday?” She said while releasing to his embrace.

“Yes Nabi. And the picture was all over the Entertainment Portal. I really should treat whoever he or she is to a fine meal, they are the reason why I can now claim you publicly.” He kissed her again and this time it was hotter than what he gives to her earlier.

“I love you Ahn Sohee!” He said between their kisses.

“And I love you too” She responded with the same intensity that we all know where it lead to.


Seungri was bombarded with a lot of questions when he cascade their leader’s message. He knows that this will really happen and all he can do was assure everyone that at eight in the morning, the HeeDragon lovers will show up.

After this he will really ask a nice gift from his Hyung and Mandu, it’s not easy being the only one who has some information when a really big issue arise. He really feels that he will die later if his Hyung wouldn’t show up. Aish, he probably in heaven now with Sohee while he was the one having the taste of hell.




P.S. This happened in 2015 :) I hope you like it ^^



1. All successful relationships require some work. – They don’t just happen, or maintain themselves.  They exist and thrive when the parties involved take the risk of sharing what it is that’s going on in their minds and hearts.  Open communication and honesty is the key. 
2. Most of the time you get what you put in. – If you want love, give love.  If you want friends, be friendly.  If you’d like to feel understood, try being more understanding.  It’s a simple practice that works.
3. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot in someone’s life. – Never force someone to make a space in their life for you, because if they know your worth, they will create one for you.
4. There is a purpose for everyone you meet. – Some people will test you, some will use you, and some will teach you; but most importantly some will bring out the best in you.  Learn to see and accept the differences between these people, and carry on accordingly.
5. We all change, and that’s okay. – Our needs change with time.  When someone says, “You’ve changed,” it’s not always a bad thing.  Sometimes it just means you stopped living your life their way.  Don’t apologize for it.  Instead, be open and sincere, explain how you feel, and keep doing what you know in your heart is right.
6. You are in full control of your own happiness. – If your relationship with yourself isn’t working, don’t expect your other relationships to be any different.  Nobody else in this world can make you happy.  It’s something you have to do on your own.  And you have to create your own happiness first before you can share it with someone else. 
7. Forgiving others helps YOU. – Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.”  It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.”  Forgiveness is the answer.  It doesn’t mean you’re erasing the past, or forgetting what happened. It means you’re letting go of the resentment and pain, and instead choosing to learn from the incident and move on with your life.
8. You can’t change people; they can only change themselves. – Instead of trying to change others, give them your support and lead by example.  If there’s a specific behavior someone you love has that you’re hoping disappears over time, it probably won’t.  If you really need them to change something, be honest and put all the cards on the table so this person knows what you need them to do.
9. Heated arguments are a waste of time. – The less time you spend arguing with the people who hurt you, the more time you’ll have to love the people who love you.  And if you happen to find yourself arguing with someone you love, don’t let your anger get the best of you.  Give yourself some time to calm down and then gently discuss the situation. 

For me, it is really a memorable day:)
I've got a critical ticket while enjoying lunch at Yabu T.T with team mates. We dine out since at the evening we will have our company Christmas party, and after I ate, the ticket come to our queue. I never knew that eating such delicious meal can make me this tireeedddd..
So for the whole day, this is the summary of what happened to me.

  • I've received an unexpected call from my new manager *yay! we haven't even talk yet and here's the first thing we encounter*
  • For three years, this is the first time I work during Christmas party. I went out the event to find a plug since we doesn't have it on our table and we are working using laptop T.T I've borrowed my team mates laptop because mine was dead T.T
  • I've missed a total of more than 10 calls from my team lead and customer because of poor internet connection and I didn't notice that someone is calling me because I was too occupied by the issue.
  • I didn't won any price T.T
  • And lastly I did not have the chance to eatttt :(
But it wasn't as bad as what happened to me last year with all self issues :P And I actually learn something on my new role, I also spend some time again with my new team mates and saw my previous team! ^^
I was able to wander around MOA alone hehe.
And my name didn't call while I was outside, I will be devastated if that happens haha.





Dear Santa,

Though I never believe that you are a real, but I know I have friends out there that wanted to act as you so I will post my wishlist in case they are wondering what I want this Christmas.

I've been a good girl this year ^^ So could you please give me these?


The Tanso Slumbook by Witty Will Save The World
I badly wanted to have this cute crazy Slumbook :P I heard from their page that it was already sold out on their multiply page and only available at some NBS, please buy me this ^^


If you can't find the Tanso Slumbook, you could buy me this one The Tsismosang Perpetual Planner for All Seasons ^^ This is also created by Tita Willy of Witty Will Save The World. 


In The Garden of Thoughts by Dodinsky. I'm not sure if this is available on our bookstores, but you can check it here.


GD one of a kind Album, you can buy it at Odyssey Music Store.

Don't give me any planner as I already ordered one from Tita Willy :D
If you have more money could you please buy me any of these? You can contact me or ship it to my house or I can order it and you only need to pay :P hihihi

 Nikon Lens 


Roundtrip Ticket to Korea

VIP ticket to Bigbang BigShow 2013 :D 


VIP ticket to Shinhwa's 15th Anniversary Concert :P


Tablet or Kindle :D

But if you just wanted to make me happy without spending much, I will really love it if you could give me a Christmas Card with hand written letter :P I don't want a printed one just because.

Sincerely,

Ellen ^^









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