Again and again and again and again

Nuh eh maleh ddo sok a weh geulunji molla weh geulunji molla

If you listen to KPOP, I bet that you have heard the lyrics above, and if you are a fangirl/boy you might know the song title and currently repeating the word again and again and again with hand gestures :P

OkKat and My Concert Ticket :P

Last March 2, I had a chance to see them perform live! L.I.V.E. XD at SM MOA Arena and I realized two things.

1. They really live up to their claim that they are Beastly Idols.
2. And 2PM is really the HOTTEST time of the day.

I watched the Bigbang Concert last October and If I will compare the number of their audience, Bigbang will be the winner. But, in defense to 2PM, I really don't know how the producer promote this event because in my opinion, there are not enough preparations. BB announces their schedule almost 4 months prior to their concert date which gives the fans enough time to save a GenAd seat. 2PM announces their concert 2 months   prior to the date and they sell their ticket some days more than a month of the concert date. Fangirls outside Manila cannot book their flight immediately and no more time to save. As a result most of the concert attendees move a seat from what they bought. My bestfriend, her friend and I bought a GenAd ticket but we sat at the UpperBox seat. It's a luck that I am happy with but I am worried how the boys will react and how will we able to tell them that Philippines love them and we want another concert. 

So in order to let them know what we want, we screamed to the top of our voices. Our own way to let them know that the numbers are important but the loud screams and happy cheers matters too. I swear I almost feel my throat was bleeding because I was screaming like a mad person. After the concert, I can't speak because my voice breaks that you can't understand what I am saying. My usual voice came back almost four days after the concert and I drank too many ginger juice and avoided cold water T.T

Aside from my two realization, I feel lucky to witness an amazing fanservice by them that I really wish some artist will do if they have the chance to perform for their Filipino Audiences. Some of the fanservices I witnessed

• They provided Tagalog translations to their talks which is a very big deal to me because most of the audience cannot understand Korea aside from the usual phrases and doing this makes me feel as a fan that I am closer to them. Though they have English Speaking members that can do the talks but they really did their best to feel closer to the Filipino Hottest, though there are mistranslated words (pagkalalaki anyone?) but its minimal that you can still understand them and the translator at the end of the concert give off an unprofessional-ism because she keeps on stuttering.
• They allow get the fan cams in mosh pit and took a picture of them with the camera owner. Goodness! If I am one of those luck people, the people around me will be happier because I won't change my desktop background for 6 months.
• They give panda stuff toys to the audience. And I feel so lonely knowing I don't have the chance to get one since I sat on the upper box level which is impossible for them to throw those cute panda stuff toys T.T
• Their fanletter really touches my heart T.T And they are so awesome to that clip too T.T My heart can't choose who she loves dearest because they are all ultra handsome. Note, the letter is in tagalog too! I wonder who wrote that because it is handwritten. I hope its Wooyoungie!
• WooYoung lead while the rest of the members also sang one of the famous Filipino children song, Tong Tong Tong Pakitong kitong that made the audience, including me giggles in glee and excitedly sang to a very familiar song that we don't sang anymore.
• They used tagalog words as much as they can, though I know it's common but them memorizing too much tagalog word is not that easy since they need to practice and travel altogether. I would not forget when Junho said he's 'Gutom' (hungry) after that he immediately said that Filipino's are 'magaganda' (beautiful). My bestfriend friend suddenly blurt out that he's bluffing because we are pretty when he's hungry :P

Saying that I enjoy the concert is an understatement because I really have FUN in capital words :P

Though I will admit that I really feel that I am a girl at that moment and I wanted to devour them because they are so hot, manly, handsome and awesome but I know my place so it will only be a dream even I wanted to think its possible because I know its not :P

My company that time is a group of girls like me too and I sincerely understand why we are talking as if we are maniacs because you really can't help but feel like one when you see them in person. While watching the concert I was wondering how in this world a men like them exists and they are all koreans. They are handsome, buff, tall, singers and all of the adjectives you can think of that synonymous to GORGEOUS. Watching them dance and sing makes me realized that Korean Entertainment is not joking when they called them beastly idols because they are BEAST, in a good way and you couldn't help but be like Belle and fall for them. And they are right saying that it is the Hottest time of the day because even our clothes have their own lives that they wanted to get out of their main purpose (to cover us up) while we are getting overly excited singing along with this amazing men.

Since I already said they are hot, as in coal burning hot! So it's okay to say that we think if they were gigolo's in real life, they will be millionaire because their body is really great! It's specially amazing when you saw them with your two eyes, thought its only for Chansung but I seriously think that you will forget your sanity when you saw them. I've realized that the known Filipino quote "Laglag Undies" could be true T.T They are drop dead gorgeous!

Aside from their bodies, faces and fanservice I love their performances too :P I never doubt the live voices of Korean Artist because I know they are a product of their training years but I am still amaze how similar their live voices to their recorded one. Though you can hear breathing but its minimal that you wonder how they workout in order to dance their amazing choreography while singing so beautifully.

I am so happy that I really can't get over with this for weeks, which is also the reason why I am only posting it now. I think that this is the best birthday gift that came from my brother (he's the one who bought my ticket because I'm broke). I thanked my bestfriend too for non stop encouraging me to watch because I will feel so bad for missing a great concert like this one :P

March is the official month when the Summer start.
The month where we can feel the summer heat which means that beaches is on its peak and Baguio will be overpopulated.
This is the months when school year ends and summer vacation starts, only if you are a student.
But aside from the heat and vacation, I love March because its my birth month.
So before this month end, I wanted to share how awesome my March was ^^

Hello Bloggers World!

Yay! Finally my blog has a new look, bading na bading lang ang peg haha.

I haven't posted anything lately and I felt sad about it T.T 

So as a goal this March, I will post twice a week (YAY) since I have so many things to share (2PM, 2PM, 2PM!) and its my birthday month. 

If you are the person who likes musical theme movies, I think you need to include this on your movie list :P

I just finished watching this tonight with my brother, and we did like it :P I am normal movie watcher, so most of the time I just listen to what my friends will recommend to me unless my favorite actor stars in it. It's been a week when my office mate asked me if I like watching musical themed movie, and since I do, I told her yes and she told me that I should watch Pitch Perfect.

After a week, I finally manage to watch it and I wonder why I didn't last week T.T

If you are reading this because you are expecting to read a good review, or something technical, well I am disappointing you because I can't post anything like that even if I wanted too :( (Math and Music are the two things I really suck )

Pitch perfect is like Glee in Collage movie without the complicated relationships in a nutshell. Though what I said is something typical for musical theme movies, I love that they show the movie The breakfast club that I am now interested to watch. I wanted to watch it for the longest time because another friend told me so, but maybe this week I will be able too :P I also like the Barden Bella's group, and really had a good laugh with Lily and Fat Amy! :P

If you haven't watch this, go grab a copy now :P It's fun ^^ and they sound sooo gooodddd!!

Today is my Mom's Birthday and we celebrated in a bit unusual way aka The professional way.
We had a dinner at Tramway's Buffet at Banawe Quezon City.
<This post will be updated later>

I just read the news that my beloved Wondergirls leader, Min Sunye will officially leave the group. I know it will happen, the realistic part of me predicted it, who can manage being a newly wed and come back in a group; I did not say it can't happen, but the priorities will change. And their goes my hopeful part that keep saying "No she wouldn't, she's their leader. JYP release an official announcement"
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I don't know what to feel exactly, I still remember when Sunmi officially went on hiatus, I cried bucket of tears. Two years has been passed and I think I've matured a bit that I can fully understand why Leadermin will take that path. But I still feel sadness, it is funny because they don't even know me but I feel like I am losing one of my sister.

I know that among any other thing, love is something we should never took for granted, and I admire Sunye Unnie for getting what her heart desired. I have a great faith that her marriage life will be amazing, problems do arise but with their faith and love, they can conquer every obstacle. I am glad that she meet a good man that will love and cherish her, something that the entertainment business cannot give permanently. I can list a lot of things why I am happy and support her decision but like what I always says to my friends, you can be happy and sad at the same time. And I guess, this is what I am feeling right now.
I am happy that someone will protect and love her when the limelight faded and the curtain are all close.
I am sad because it will affect the Wondergirls, and to be honest they are not on the great side.
But there is one thing that I am sure, I support her.

I know a lot of people will criticize her, especially those who are much much concerned with the group. There will be lot's of question that no one knows the answer. Her wedding news is already a big scoop, it is encouraging and surprising for an idol group member to marry at that age but we cannot deny that this also affect the group. This question that usually arise are related to their American Album and what will happen now to the girls after the solo promotion. I hope they wouldn't disband T.T That is so heart breaking and I do not know if I can handle it properly.

I am a fangirl, and I also asked the question above. They been through a lot of sacrifice, losing members and fans. But aside from mere fangirl, I am a wonderful who understand that the members happiness will always be our priority. Their decision may hurt us, but if that what makes them happy, after a while we can fully understand them and glad that they stood for their own happiness. I hope that if there are wonderfuls that are not too pleased with this, try to put your self on her shoes. She did her part on producing and sharing great music. She made us happy. She made us proud along with the girls. Don't you guys think that now she that she find her happiness, the best thing we can do is understand, accept and support our wonderful leader?

If one day, at some twist of fate Sunye Unnie will read this, I wanted you to know that I am happy that you choose your happiness over anything. I support you, and I hope that you will have a wonderful marriage! I am glad that in this crazy world that we leave in, you show us how to dream ,do things for your dreams and that dreams changes over time too. Unnie, thank you for inspiring me :D
To the Wondergirls, Hwaiting!!! You still rock and will forever be Wonderfuls!!!!

P.S. I misunderstand the news, it says indefinite leave and not leaving wondergirls T.T Sorry :(

I was a day late but it's better than never right? Yes, Ellen, We know you love to give excuses for your laziness :P

2012 already bid it's goodbye 2 days ago, and 2013 is waving her hands in front of us. Though it's a late post, I wanted to give my thanks to a wonderful year that makes me feel really okay after a long time.

2012 in words for me are, CHANGE, FREEDOM, FAITH and FANGIRL :) Four words that summarize how the previous year has been really good to me.

CHANGE
It's been a long time from the time I bravely face this word. For the past years, I've been a stagnant creature that stays on her comfort zone. I was being afraid to change things because I am uncertain if I can handle all the crazy emotions and over analyzing that I may do. Actually, I am still afraid of changes at the start of 2012, but like what they said when changes happen, it doesn't stop, it doesn't pause, so you should prepare yourself, smile and take the challenge.

This year, I change my career path and it feels so amazing. That finally I have the courage to leave the place where I am not happy anymore. This year, I also realize that even though you change a part of your life, it doesn't mean that the people you are with will change aswell. I make new friends and my relationship with my previous team mates are much better.

Change doesn't happen solely on my career, it also happen within my family :) There are so many decisions and plans we created this year that we know what should we do in the future. Many plan's that we will do anything to accomplish.

I know that change is constant, and I shouldn't fear it but sometimes, it's really difficult telling yourself to calm down when you are not really sure on what's happening inside you. This coming year, I promise myself to be more open to it, to embrace it with a gleefully smile because I know I am heading to something. It may not be as big as I wanted to, but I know it will lead me to be the person I am meant to be:)

FREEDOM
It's actually associated with change since I feel a lot more free when I accepted and do something for a a change.
I feel freedom towards my work that I am now disciplining myself again to be a better me.
I feel freedom to take incharge of my career more that I am restricting myself to lesser fangirling because I wanted to learn more.
I feel freedom in my life now because I was not as bitter as before.
I feel freedom because I have decided to take the wheel of mylife again and decide which destination I will go next.
I feel freedom last year because finally I admit that I am not okay, I seek help, I forgive myself.
I realize this year that freedom really means being outside a box or a cage, but sometimes it's been difficult determining if you are inside a cage or not because you are being blinded by the invisible walls that you created by yourself.
I am thankful that finally I feel like a flying bird again, I feel the old me who look the world brighter.

FAITH
All of the other words I wrote is nothing if I didn't reposes my faith.
I always believe that I am one of Papa God's favorite cup of chocolate and I promise him before that I will do anything in my power to serve him. But for the past years, my hardheadedness and pride made its way, I was ashamed to face him and making bull crap excuses that I am busy and will make time next time, but I did not try hard enough.

This year, Papa God knock on my family door and for a long time, we welcome him as a family. My faith in him resurrected and I am slowly going back to that little girl who talks to him all night.
I realized how stupid I am for the past years and I will not do that stupidity again. It's not because of the things I gain but mainly because he makes me feel stronger and much better.

We do have many problems this year, I can't count how many times I've cried alone but everytime I talked to him, it feels that someone's touching my heart and telling me "Little Child, don't worry too much, I am here and will protect you". Being a Papa God's servant really a truly amazing, life changing experience:)

FANGIRL
This balance all the seriousness actually.
I will never forget 2012 as this was the year I met and watch Bigbang live ^^ I've been high for almost a month because of that.
I am more active on this part too that I write fanfictions again after 2010 T.T
I promise to lessen my time here this 2013, it's easy back threading ^^

2012 has been a wonderful year to me and I hope that this 2013 it will be a BANG ^^
I hope my 2013 I will finally scrap some of the things on my bucketlist, my family will be much much much better, and I will continue serving Papa God.

P.S. Lola, I know you will not able to read this but I hope you'll be okay there :) I miss you so much and one day I will draw once again.

P.P.S. I'm such a feeler here:P