I was on night shift last week, and last friday I have a good chat with my friend/officemate :)
It wasnt intentional but I am glad that we had that long good morning talk. We talked about goals, life, and person capacity. Amazement is not enough to describe what I feel at that moment, I cannot recall everything but here are some of the things she shared to me:

• There is always a way, if you don't know what to do, always check the process and it will guide you 
• Don't be too apologetic when asking question, its normal. After asking too much, one day you will realize that you are now answering questions that you have asked before, this time to the newer one :)
• Being Lazy is not an excuse, it will never.
• Time is like money, when you know how much you have, you start thinking what to do with it.
• If you do not know what your future is, look ahead, and ask then look back and ask again. After a series of asking, you will eventually realized what you want.
• You will only know what you want when you can imagine yourself being that person in 5-10 years time.
• Breakdown your goal and start working on it.
• If you reached one goal, create another one and start achieving it again, then create another one and continue the process. Life is a cycle, you will forever in a loop.
• Don't ever think that someone is greater than you, or you are lesser person that s/he is. It just happens that the person strength is fit for the role. You will find your perfect spot too.
• There are no small of big dreams, dreams are dreams :)
• If you have a goal, give a target date to it. Time is the only thing that differ dreams from goals.
• In life, you can only be a victim or the one who victimize, and I assure you no one wanted to be a Victim. So start running your life.
• When you point finger to someone, remember that the other three was pointing at yourself. 'Hindi mo pwedeng alisan ng muta ang iba, kung meron ka rin naman'
• Always be Objective :) A person cannot be fired mainly because of attitude problem, we all have that. It mostly weigh if you perform well or not.
• Never let emotion rule your common sense.
• The good thing about our company, the main rule is about Trust & Respect. Which fights all the office politics :)
• Interest, Honesty and a little effort will help you in the long run. 
• Start by little, and you will be amaze how much those little things did for you.

I love talking to her, and I know one day, I can be the person I hope I will be :) and when that happen, I will make her proud that her words shape who I am and what I wanted to be.

I was in college when I think of recording myself giving some message to the future me, sadly my copy was all burned along with my hard drive. Last year, I have the idea to write a letter to the future and past me, just a simple way to motivate the present me, but knowing myself I did not create any since I am lazy, buzy and unmotivated (Yeah, I spent my 2011 as a zombie)  so for 2012, I decided to add some spice on my bland life. I finally gather some motivation to create and maintain a blog and fulfilled my long overdue letter.

I have found a great site that will send me the email I write today next year (or which year I wanted it to be delivered), isn't it fun? I only wanted to write something for the future me, and eventually check it once in a while, but I found a site which I cannot cheat (Since I cannot read my letter until we have reach the specific date of delivery) and have much more excitement.

I just write a letter to myself that will be delivered next year. You can also make one her: futureme :)

P.S. Please share to me your feelings when you read your future letters!

I haven't mention that I love reading right? So this will be my first post about my oldest hobby: Reading.

One friend of mine let me borrowed her pocketbook, and as a hopeless romantic as i am (Among all the genre, my favorite is romance <3, next is sci-fi) I read instantly, the story was about a bestfriends, who are arranged to be married by their parents and being away for a long time because of the snob grandfather of the girl. When the guy came back, the girl is already engaged to another guy. It was nothing out of ordinary, but I really love the ending when the girls old man gave his speech on their wedding day through telling a fairy tale about a princess and her prince dog, with the princess old wicked grandfather. It is a sweet speech, to say the least and I really feel happy just imaging this things. But what really makes my hopeless romantic veins do some somersault was when the old man narrates that he thinks that the dog prince is not good enough for his princess because every princess deserves her own princess. So one time, he asked the dog prince what he wants to be when he grows up, the dog answered "Selena's Husband". I was really touched because there is a part on the middle when I think that his answered to that question was to be the president of the company since he was destined to managed it, but the author did not say anything and just state that its the answer that the boy always gave when he was asked the same question.
The story is too sweet, for those who doesn't enjoy this genre much but for a hopeless romantic as I am, it's really a wish that I will have a guy bestfriend and we will fall inlove like that or if that's too much, I just wanted a guy who will wish to be my husband someday :)
In years time, I will re-read this post and remember how much I love Selena and Jacobo (the main cast) and how I wish I will feel what they felt towards each other.

For anyone who will read this, and currently single like me, I hope we found our Selena and Jacobo soon! :)
P.S. please let me know if ever you found him/her :P i love romantic stories! especially if it's true to life ^^

2011 was a tough year for me. I realized that I wasn't moved on from the fall down I experienced late 2009 which means that little by little, I create a monster inside myself that slowly consume the Ellen that I am for the past 19 years. I have experience a deadly combination of self-pity and insecurity that slowly eating my confidence.
This year aswell, I have learned so many lessons that I am glad to know like, you should really love yourself and never compare things.I also learned that you are the one who created your own destiny, there are external factor but 90% of it is in your hands, whether it's just simply choosing what color to wear or what bag to carry. All of that weights the destiny you are creating. My experienced this year thought me as well not to do things tomorrow if you can do it today, so you can use tomorrow for doing things you really love. I also realized that it's okay not to please everybody, not just because you really cannot but a No with justified reasons will earn you respect, than a Yes that will brings you headache and danger your word of honor.
There are so many things that I am really thankful for this year. I am glad to found new friends, and maintain a healthy relationship with the old one. I am happy as well to have a change on regaining one special friend. I am thankful to God for everything, for making my Lola okay, for giving us hope every time that thing happened and to every blessings that I received this year.
I am really glad to remember how luck I am , and I shouldn't dwell too much on what I do not have, and focus more on what I have.
So for this new year, I will build a better me, with a much more stronger positive side and faith on herself :)
Hello 2012! Kindly guide me :P

Exactly 3 hours, and 25 minutes ago, half of the world welcome this year 2012, actually I was one of them, me and the rest of my countrymen. So what is the relationship of this to my very first blog entry? I do have a blogger account since 2008 or 2009 but haven't really tired using this(I just register so I can stalk some fans of my crushes haha) and I do have a wordpress account back then which is mainly for academic purposes.

So what is the relationship? I just want to open a chapter in my life, and I think one of the best thing to go with me is opening a new blog that will share my ordinary life to the reader who will lost there way here (wink). Even though i am an IT graduate, and have several accounts on different blog sites I always find it awkward to share an ordinary me to the rest of the internet world. Last year, 2011, I realized that things really changes faster than anyone could ever imagine and as sentimental as I am, I want to save everything that I can so I can easily walk back to memory lane. And Viola! What will be the best way to do this, other than creating a blog site that I will seriously think as my baby :) I also wanted to do what I really want way back in elementary, and that is sharing things that I knew. So I guess you should expect this blog to mirror who really I am and the things I really love. So please expect a blog full of craziness and fangirling!.

Please wish me luck on this journey :)

Here is a pic of Jojo, Isabel (the bride), Jona, Angela and Me ^^

Today is Belay's civil wed and it was a Surprise for us.

Di ako makapaniwala na yung sister ko ikinasal na...parang biro lang..wala talaga sa amin maniwala na totoo yung sinabi ni jojo sa akin kagabi..kung nakita nyo lang yung face namin kanina! pwd isali sa WOW MALI :D haha 

Ang tanda na pala namin no? Malapit na ang average namin sa 20's pero feeling ko baby pa din ako..haha sabi nga nila kalabaw lang ang tumatanda:P Kidding aside it was a shock to everyone para akong nagulat na di ko ma explain..feeling ko ang layo pa ng age para magpakasal ako, wala pa nga ako work eh tapos ganun na. parang kailan nga lang magkakasama pa kami sa HS ngayos Mrs. Domingo na sya! 

I just wish for the best sa kanila ni Tan Tan. Hope that this marriage will last forever:) 

Congrats sister! baka umiyak ako sa church wedding nyo! haha papayat ako para sa araw na yun ^^

I hope that it would be the first and last..:)

CRY