hollow

It maybe sound stupid, but I am going to give another shot, who knows maybe it will work.

It's been a month since the last time I post a blog, and from that day, many things happened. I feel DOOMED!!! I felt that I am in the lowest state of life so far, and like everyone else...I DO HATE IT.

My confidence leave me for a while (and I dont know when she will come back), my inspirations suddenly filed a leave which I unknowingly approved. I feel useless, like I am in a hollow state in which I can't do anything normal. I feel lost yet I also know the way back. I know I need to do something but I can feel my senses being numb which I can't do anything right now. It wasnt the right time to sour-grape and brings out the white flag. I already reached this far and almost see the end of the line, but I dont know why I feel like I can't make it. I can't afford to fail, NOT NOW.