We’re just friends.

I still remember the first time I said this.

We are on our PE class and waiting for our teacher to return when one of our classmate tease us because your helping me tie the lace of my shoe again, and being the hot tempered me, I shouted it to end the unnecessary noise that they are creating.

We were high school sophomores back then.

We’re just friends.

I blurted this again five years after that PE incident, and this time I was announcing it to the whole drama club with my hands on the air after they create a fuss when I was running to hug you because I saw a mouse near the stage.

My temper doesn’t change much after some years, and after letting them tagged as us their official love team, I have this feeling that I needed to clarify things to them.

We were college juniors then.

We’re just friends.

I said these words again but this time in a drunken state.

A high school friend even has a video of me saying this like a song, repeating it over and over again on a tune only I can decipher.

You we’re holding and pacifying me again as always.

I really can’t remember what happened after; all I know is that I wanted them to realize that we are just friends, nothing more, nothing less so I made a foolish attempt and sing that line all over again.

We are on our first year after college graduation, a first official high school get together that I really messed up.

We’re just friends.

Two years ago, and this is the phrase I consistently said to my officemates who also consistently asking me if we’re an item.

And every time I said this, they never believe me. They often told me that I’m in denial, no friends will consistently fetch a friend who works a city away just to driver her home.

Aside from being hot tempered, my pushy trait doesn’t change as well so I always ask you to tell them we’re just friends. Really just friends.

We are three years on the field then.

We’re just friends.

I also remember the first time I heard you say that phrase voluntarily.

I didn’t know what to feel then. That time, I prove that it’s really possible to feel an imaginary heart attack. You know you’re heart is still beating but it doesn’t feel like it is. You are okay, but in your head you need someone to call an ambulance or you will die.

That happened two years ago, when we are at the mall and we bump to this pretty lady.

We’re just friends.

6 months after the mall incident, I said this.

These familiar words that I keep saying repeatedly over the years felt strange when I said it that day. It feels like my favorite candy is now cutting my mouth, but I can’t throw it because the person who give it to me is looking really hopeful. That’s how I feel that day, these words that I am familiar with feels like a knife coming out from my system that cutting me when I said this, but I cannot keep quiet when you look at me and begging to clear the misunderstanding I unintentionally created.

The pretty lady saw me bear hugging you on your living room while burying my face on your back like I usually does when I feel sad, and she read it as what the ordinary people see. Not so friendly like.

You immediately untangled my hands and said clear the misunderstanding, and that end from me saying that phrase so sincerely that I fooled even myself.

They really are ‘just’ friends.

I heard this couple of times today, and for the first time after a long time I wanted to be the hot temper girl again who doesn’t can say things she wanted to say.

That pushy young lady who will get the answer or words I wanted to hear.

It’s been a year from the time I realized that we are not ‘just’ friends, I feel more than that and I am the only one to blame why we never get out of that zone.

The fool me who never look at you after I said that phrase or get that phrase out of your mouth to prove my point.

The fool me who was so afraid to lose you when the more than friends phase came so I opt to choose not rock our friendship boat and  unintentionally persuade you to do the same because I let you feel that we can only have a smooth sailing both, or a river that could drown us. No sailing against the wind or using a life jacket that will ensure us to reach the shore.

And from that foolishness, it brings us here; it finally brings me here, to the place I keep on mentioning.

See! We’re just friends.

I ended my sweet speech with this, as I hold my wine glass and asking everyone for a toast to celebrate the engagement of my dear friend and the pretty lady.

The wine taste bitter, and I love how it sympathize with what I feel now.

This is the last time I will said this, the last time in which I have the rights to tell people about this.

Nothing left for the two us but just be friends.

It was a shocking news to me.
I just woke up and check allkpop for some news when I read their headline about dearest LeaderMin marriage.

I have read in Soompi about JYP's official press release for this.
Some fans said that she even wrote this on her blog page, but I havent seen any news for that.
Like other fans, I have this bugging suspicion that maybe she is pregnant but the company immediately deny this and said that if our LeaderMin is pregnant, they wouldn't announce this news widely (which is a valid argument :))

Ofcourse, fans reaction are mixed on this one because it doesn't only involve Wondergirls leader but the whole group as well since they are active and their is an ongoing US Debut.

For a wonderful like me, I can sincerely say I am trully happy for Sunye. We all know that she deserve this kind of happiness after everything. But another part of me ask the question what happened to the group and the rest of the members. Though JYP said that they will focus on solo activities, i am still worried that it might be an early disbandment or it could trigger that.

Actually, this news is more of a win win situation with a little losses.
For me the losses involves their US album and a bit bitterness with Sunmi's department.
But it the win-win situation is much bigger because:

• It is a proof that JYP value their artists happiness and choice
• Sunye found the happiness she deserve
• The rest of the members can pursue a solo career for time being, which will serve as an advantage since they can try it because we all know that being in an idol group is not a forever path, unless they can be Shinhwa
• This is a record breaking news :) It's a first time that an active idol will get married and continue being in an idol group
• This served as an inspiration to all the idol's who wanted to do the same :)

Whatever it is, I sincerely wish the best for my favorite group! Wondergirls :)

I don't think this is the end of them :) For me, they have this amazing charms that you can always accept them whatever things they will do because they are only seeking for their own happiness too, a part where shows that they are the same as us. 

And I think this decision doesn't solely come from Sunye, we all know how great leader she is and she will not do something that will badly affect the group. 

So to all people who think she is selfish, think again and try to fit in on her shoes. You could easily understand her reason then, and Yubin, Ye Eun, Lim, Sohee and Sunmi supports her 100%, why can't we right?

Author's Note: I started this one shot last October 25 (which is pretty obvious haha) but I just completed it yesterday.

Please excuse my grammatical errors (do point it out if you spot some so I can edit it :)
Don't throw anything from me, I'm just an ordinary fangirl lost in her own world :) 
I also post this at Soompi :) 



Their Alive Tour in Manila has been completed yesterday and they are now at Malaysia for their next stop.
He’s usually happy after every concert, they are all.
His mood is really bright on the plane going to Malaysia that he even allowed SeungRi to touch his baggage and used his accessories. But everything went down after he seen that news.
And it doesn’t get better as the time past, in fact it gets worsen that what it was every time he heard that stupid voicemail prompt.

A collective sigh has been released after the sound of closing door.
The four people who made that, especially the two maknae suddenly realized the value of freedom and free will after almost an hour of restricting and carefully selecting what they will say.
‘TOP Hyung, what really happened to JiYong Hyung?” softly asked by the curious Daesung whose oblivious to what’s the specific reason why his hyung got mad, but sensitive enough to not rock the boat.
“Asked SeungRi or Taeyang, I was busy playing when I heard him cursed”
“I don’t know anything. Ri, do you know why? You’re the last person he interacts with. Tell us what you did wrong” carefully said by Taeyang, who also controlling his voice to ensure that they wouldn’t any more anger to the dragon residing on the other door.
“I DID NOT DO ANYTHING!” Seungri defensively said, that makes the rest jump and run to him just to cover his mouth.
“SHHHH!!!” The three guys said.
“Okay okay! I know, softly, softly!” the maknae said.
“I don’t know as well hyung. I just know that he was checking something on the internet, and he suddenly cursed.”
“Dae, you’re laptop has been opened right? Connect to the internet, you know what to search.”
“Neh hyung!” Dae act as instructed and immediately search with one name that can really make their cool leader go nuts. The remaining three instantly surrounded their member, curios to what causes their leader to throw some fire.

His urge to burn the whole internet world keeps increasing as he reads every comment. He knows he shouldn’t do this as this just adds fuel to the fire, but he just can’t stop himself from doing so. His members informed him more than an hour ago that they will just swim and have a little tour and even asked him to cool down, but he just can’t --Not until he ensures that every netizen who saw the picture has been blind, and murdered who ever think and execute that concept.
He was still engrossed on his imaginary killing session with every racy commenter when the room was filled with the first verse of Please be My Baby that immediately grab his attention.
“Op----”
“YAH! AHN SOHEE Why you didn’t tell me that the photoshoot you’ll do involve a see through mini dress and sexy pose???”
“So, Oppa, this is the reason behind the 30 missed calls for three hours and a voicemail with an angry voice saying Ahn Sohee! Call me once you take notice that someone has been dying while making this call!. Oppa! You’re really funny hahahahaha”
“Don’t laugh at me! I’m really mad. Why you didn’t complain when they asked you to post like that! Or even when they asked you to wear that mini dress! Now every person on the internet saw your body, I should be the only one who can see that! THAT IS A PROPERTY OF MY EYES!”
“Yah! Kwon JiYong! Don’t say things like that! People might misunderstand! And since when my body become the property of your eyes???!”
“Since you said yes to me missy! Since that day, everything you own is partially owned by me and vice versa. So that means your body is mine too!”
“I said don’t mention things like thar, people might misunderstanddddd!!!”
“I don’t care! That is much better so all of commenter will know that I can sue them for looking at your picture and thinking of other things. I should be the only one to see that, I am the owner of that!!! Next time I will ask JYP hyung to let Seungri manage your schedule!”
“Aigoo, Someone’s mad right now.” Sohee said in a sweet sing sang voice.
“Yah! Ahn Sohee, don’t use that sweet tone on me. And yes, someone’s really mad right now. I don’t like those pictures!”
“Oppa! Don’t you think you’re harsh? I did a photoshoot wherein I wear a hot pants which is more showy that what I wear but you did not react as crazily as you did now” she said in an aegyo voice
“Don’t remind me that! I also don’t like your outfit on that photoshoot!! Tomorrow I will contact JYP Hyung and asked him to let Seungri handles your entire schedule!”
“I love you Kwon Ji Yong!”
“Yah! I told you don’t—“
“Okay, I won’t tell you that I love you again!” she said in a teasing voice
“Not that one! What I mean is--”
“What? You said that I shouldn’t said it”
“Not that one! Don’t manipulate me Nabi”
“I did not! I just wanted to say I love you is that bad?” her tone changed again to a charming and sincere one.
“No, of course! And you know I love you too right?” he said in a soft and sincere tone
“Neh! So can we forget that you just got mad a while ago?”
A smile visibly shown in his lips, he gave up. He can never win an argument with his Nabi, especially when she’s this charming – over the phone.
“Oppa! You are not mad anymore right? My Kwon JiYong is not mad now” the teasing tone is back again that he can’t really help but control his giggles.
 “Araso! I am not mad anymore okay? But—“
“No buts! Okay?”
“Araso, Araso! You should be happy that this Kwon JiYong loves you so much”
“Of Course! I love the possessive Kwon Ji Yong!”
The call ended 30 minutes after wherein Sohee informed him that Sunmi reached the apartment and they will have dinner outside.
The end of the call is exactly the time in which the rest of the Bigbang members on the way to their room.

Everyone can feel that their hotel room suddenly feels brighter.
And before they can even go to their leader’s room, the door opened and a smiling JiYong appears.
“Ji! You’re okay now?” Taeyang asked
“Much better! What did you do outside?”
“Swimming! And some strolls around the hotel. You already talked to her?”
“Yes.” Another smile was visible on JiYong’s face.
“So you’re not mad anymore because of the photoshoot?” TOP asked.
“No. I am okay now.”
“Really hyung??? So it’s okay if I will look at the photos again? Sohee’s really sexy on that pictorial”
Seungri said before he can even think what his saying.
The room suddenly feels gloomy again, and a murderous stare immediately appear from the eye smile he had seconds ago.
“I said I am okay with Sohee’s photoshoot, but did not say I am okay with you checking on her pictures!” JiYong said to the now statue like Seungri who finally realized what his mouth did.
“Neh Hyung!” he said like a puppy.
“Good!” Ji said in an ice cold voice before going back to his room.

“Thank you hyung” Daesung whispered to TOP who was now silently laughing to the statue like Panda.
He’s really glad that TOP immediately pinch him before he can gave his opinion, which is not different from what their maknae said. If his hyung a second slower, he probably in Seungri’s place right now.

I just learned from Hi Kpop that Bigbang adorable Maknae, Lee SeungRi created a twitter account this week.

And him, being the maknae we know and adore, he announced to the world that he just created a twitter account, and immediately claimed his identity by sending tweet to a fake account. He's so cute! ^^

He just made my day :P (which also means that I will have trouble sleeping again haha)

I really admire Baby Ri's character ^^ and this is definitely one of the things I love about him. Who among the Kpop Idol's can do what he just did? 

I am happy that JiYoung created an account, but it is really different from how Baby Ri's did it. I can really say WOW! FANTASTIC BABY ^^

P.S. Since I am so happy, I also tweet him with faith that he will read every tweets that he received. Well, there is a great chance that he does that, he wouldn't be called as Bigbang king of fanservice and Public Relations for nothing :P

Aish! I should really save this year so I can see him again ^^

I love 2PM and Jay Park, and their scandal really make me sad. (I thank heaven's because that time I wasn't that much of a fan, or else I will feel really broken hearted and that will lead to series of Ellen's uncalled dramatic moments that it's better to be hidden)

I like their songs, I have all of their album and I really went to Jay Park's meet and greet when he came to the Philippines last May :P But if I will put them to scale of my favorite boy groups, they are 3rd, after Bigbang, while Shinhwa's taking the first spot. Though I can immediately say that, there is one thing that makes me wonder at times :P 2PM's Only You is the only Kpop song that can make me feel that can give me an eerie feeling, something that makes me feel that I am in love, and it's weird actually. I feel nervous, my heart keeps beating as if my crush is in front of me. I can't explain it, but this is the only song that can make me crazy just by listening to it and mind you, it can give me this feeling while I am listening in front of a computer. T.T

This unexplained feeling is not new, since I felt this a lot of times like:

• When I first heard Shinhwa's song on their The Return Album
• When I first listen to Lie's and Haru Haru 
• When I heard that Bigbang will have a concert in the Philippines

I felt it many times, but they are not consistent (except when I remember that I met and attended Bigbang's concert). But on this song, I really felt erratic heart beats that I promised myself I will sing this one day to my future boyfriend. It's crazy actually how this song can really make me feel all of this. Maybe because 2PM voices and this song's are a perfect fit and I am a bit nostalgic of everything.

It's crazy and I don't really know if other people feels this, but I think Only You have this magic that is so soothing to the ears and suddenly makes your heart beats unnaturally. But I can only feel this whenever I listen to Only You with the original 7 members :) I like the new one too, wherein they split up Jay's part, but I really can't feel this in-explainable feeling to that version, and I think it's because it's missing Jay's voice. I am not saying it's the only thing that lack, it is just like when you eat a really delicious cake that you really love, and one day the baker didn't put all the same ingredients, you still love the cake, it is still exceptionally delicious but you know something is missing and it will be much perfect it the certain ingredients will be put back :P

A/N: This is a year late post :P but my mind suddenly flooded by words related to it so here is the result :)

Every Filipino's knows/ have an idea on what a Jejemon is, or atleast those who are living in the Philippines.
It actually have its own wikipedia entry and a page, named jejemon.com >.<

I do not care what their fashion statement is, or how they talk or walk. I wouldn't even joined the group who wanted them to kill them (as if they really can do it :P).
But like every non-jejemon's complaint, I cannot understand

• their rule of adding H or using random vowels and numbers on their word or worst replacing it with these. (who ever said this rule should be condemned, it is not easy reading the unwanted characters)
• why they need to lengthen their words (maybe I am just lazy, but I do not like typing additional letters when I say ako to akoh or accu)
• them, using this way of writing as their statement (guys, believe me it only prove one thing, and that is you cannot spell correctly)

Though I do not appreciate them, my lovely best friend and some of the previous essays and comments reminds me that at one point in my past, I have the mild jeje virus.

I used to do the following:

• Change the word ako to 'aq' or ko to 'q'
• Change the word kasi to kz
• And some other words that somehow the basis of the Jeje virus 

Though I have a good reason that time, which is to shorten the message since SMS is so costly back in early 2000 where I was a high school student and unlimited promo are not yet invented by marketing or communications head of Telecommunications Company.

But that is a mere excuse because I do not text that way when I was in grade 6. I just change it when I was in high school because every one text-ed that way, and being the always awkward teen, I wanted to fit it. I hate to be tagged as the miss goody two shoes and wanted to prove that I am like them, and do not stick to the rules.

Looking back, I can say that my friends and batch mate will agree with me that they all been into Jejemon Phase before. A phase where in you wanted to fit it since that is the in thing. Like a time where most girls of my class went to school with Jesse's one sided pony tail and fake eye glass. And I hope this Jejemon thing will just be a fad, and will soon rub off so children and teens will realize that looking and sounding smart is a big factor aside from being really smart.

For all the proud Jeje out there and doesn't realize that they need to change their proud way of life in the near future, I just wish you will soon realize that this phase needs to be ended soon because the thing you do daily can be a habit, and they cannot easily be rubbed off.